I can’t wait to get home! I told this to my husband tonight as we were coming from an afternoon turned into dinner locally. I said that for a few reasons. It was way colder than my fall jacket. I am also recovering from a cold. And I just plain love the home we have created for ourselves, complete with our animal kids.
On my way to yoga last weekend, there was a truck driving extremely slow. This immediately caught my attention because people are usually speed demons around here. It turns out he was letting a deer walk in front of him. Let’s take a moment to appreciate this truck driver. Eventually this deer, keeping with his extremely slow fashion, crossed the street to a little park. I could feel his fear and confusion as he was looking straight at me.
I wanted to do more to help him but he is after all a wild animal. And I honestly didn’t know at the time which wildlife place to call that would not hurt him but I was going to find out. But luckily that park leads back into the woods so hopefully he found his deer friends.
Home is something I never had until now. Unfortunately, I discovered at this later stage in life that most of my blood family is not a home for me. There were opportunities when I was younger to create new homes but I was so uncomfortable in normal settings that I blew it. I also didn’t realize the karma I was creating for myself and I can happily report that every mean thing I did was done back to me. I am actually grateful for that because it allowed me to become the woman I am today. I am a more compassionately integrated woman who really does try to do the right thing but is not always successful.
It’s up to us to create our homes. Especially for some of us that don’t have blood families. Home is with the people and animals that love you. Home is with yourself.
The picture above was the only shot of him we got. Reminds me of my dog’s final moments where I couldn’t take pictures as I just had to be with her. I hope that they are both home now.
